It's too early for me

We revert to type. Anyone who knows you well knows better than you what you are likely to do. Just as with close freinds or family, you know what options they are going to choose. Before they do. The illusion of freedom to do as we please is one we cling to and have faith in like a religion. For sure, there are changes we all make. Some smokers stop. Some obese over eaters get it under control and live thin. Some drug addicts really do go straight. But statistically we are talking low numbers. What pulls a gambler in to the bookies is beyond me. What draws the paedophile to break all moral sensibility, a drive causing them to sacrifice their own lives for a few moments of their own personal pleasure is outside my understanding. But these animal drives trump reason. For most of us the problems are minor;  an extra marital affair, a desire to drive too fast. But for many it is what will do them in. We are creatures of habit. Altering my consciousness has always been my magnet. I resist for periods but its always pulling. And it takes only a small break in concentrated resistance. Just a moment of relaxation, and I'm drawn back in. At least it harms no one else. AA know that. You only have to stop being alert for a moment.